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Kou-Tan: [link] for art

KillingTrees: [link] for writing


Well, I’ve given it a lot of thought. I flipped through my gallery, frowned, and then repeated the process. I thought about how there are mountains less intimidating than cleaning up this mess—and I have bad knees, so mountains are pretty intimidating.

…and then I flipped through my gallery again, just to make sure I still thought so.

You all probably know by now that I’m the type of person who’s always attempting the impossible, but even I have my limits!

I think we get attached to things and have a lot of trouble letting go, even when we know we've outgrown them. If I think back a few years (2005!) to when I came up with the name 'Denryu', I can clearly remember flipping through a japanese/english dictionary and thinking 'ooo! that sounds cool!' I still think it sounds cool, but 'it sounds cool' isn't really enough to make me cling to it in spite of the daunting task of cleaning my gallery out.

Or if I think about it another way, Denryu is a name I used when I was just getting into art, learning a lot, and didn't have my own style yet. Don't get me wrong, I still have a LOT to learn, and my art is more often ' passable ' than ' good ', but the 'shiny new' feeling is gone. I no longer feel the urge to post every piece of crap I draw, littering my gallery with nonsense that isn't even any good as scrap work. And at the same time, I don't want to delete art that I hate that people have faved because I know I hate going through my favs with a piece of art in mind that came up in conversation and finding it's GONE. I figure there must be people out there that irks just as much as it irks me, so I don't really want to delete stuff outright.

I think one of the coolest things about the internet is that you can reinvent yourself whenever you're feeling confined by your own identity(if only real life were so simple, right?), and I've been getting claustrophobic for a while now. That's why I created the KillingTrees account for my writing, and now Kou-Tan for my art.

So, I guess some of you might still be reading and wondering 'why Kou-Tan?' Most of you are probably just wondering why I'm still babbling, but it's my last journal on this account so I'm going all out dammit!

Reason #1: I wanted to stick with the KT initials that I established with the 'KillingTrees' account.

Reason #2: I've always been drawn to Japanese names starting with 'Kou'--Kousuke, Kousaka, etc. It's a phonetic thing; I just like the way they sound.

Reason #3: I looked up the meaning of Kousuke when I was developing my new oc the other day and found out it can be written with the kanji for 'clear'--and I thought 'geez, that's perfect, since right now I'm trying to clear away a lot of old baggage and maybe clear my mind a little.

Reason #4: THE ULTIMATE REASON! Everyone who's anyone in anime art on DA has a clearly contrived, japanese-sounding name that ends in a suffix. (I'm obviously exaggerating quite a bit here) I want to be one of the cool people too.

Anyway, this account will remain in tact 'as is', but I will NOT BE UPDATING IT ANYMORE. So everyone who's still interested in my work, update your watch lists! New art will be (and some already is)on the Kou-Tan: [link] account. New writing will be added to the KillingTrees: [link] account.

Yours,
KT
(The Artist Formerly Known as Denryu)